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[04 Jan 2006|12:42am] [ mood | bored ] [ music | jack's mannequin ] i almost forgot i had this thing. actually, i did forget. i<3you. 2006 is here! yuck. 1 ♥ //

[11 Aug 2005|12:14am] [ mood | ehh. ] [ music | kelly clarkson<33 ] heyyy whoever still reads this thing.. i definately havent had any time for this livejournal stuff in a while soo here it goes. UPDATE: lately, things are good. like, sumtimes life is better than other times but for the most part summer is going great and i cudnt ask for it to be better. i love my friends and i mean the real ones. not the shady fake people who call themselves friends.. lol but thats cool too cuz its just amusement to me watching them make fools of themselves when they hug me and like tell me how much they miss me and love me. its great. anywho, ive been hanging out with this guy. the same guy whom i was hanging out with before i left for vacation. hes soooo different from anyone ive dated or seen in the past. i mean, its hard to read him and understand how he feels but for the most part its just a lotta fun to hangout with him. im not ready to like let the world know who he is but if your a close friend then you'd know. he gives me this really good feeling inside and its like an automatic smile when i see him. so i guess thats good right? we are -nOt- a couple. but to me, the title is not sumthing important to me right now. i dont need everyone to know we r together for my life to be complete. im happy with things. i wasnt looking for anything to begin with. love is so overrated and honestly id like to not be hurt again. i just recently and by recently i mean a month or so ago, got over dom. now, for those of you who don't know.. i was put through hell and back. and i do not care what anybody has to say about that i know how i felt and i know that he meant a lot to me and for me to get over that and see him make out with other chicks and not even have a care in the world, it hurts. whatever, we dont even communicate anymore. if i see him around then i get like a distant hello.. maybe? but hes way to rockstar for me now. and im perfectly fine with that cuz ever since i stopped talking to him, ive been able to just forget about him. soo much less unnecesary stress and i love it! oh yeah and north carolina was amazing.. i love it there. the people. the beach.. surfing& wakeboarding is amazing and lotta fun. i came back looking nice and tinted tew, always a plus! howeverrrr i missed my mallory and jessica and danielleeee and alex!! fall is ahead and the summer's coming to an end wayyyy too fast and school is the last thing i wanna think about. sucks. cheerleading started already, we had practices in the heat. and now we have this clinic thing with the new coaches .. im not too excited about it. we'll see how well it goes. ohhhh and i have good news. me and mother went car shopping and we decided on the new 2006 acura rsx! im exciteddddddd. ive been thinking about going to garret mountains in memory of my dad since his ashes are out there.. because lately ive been having these weird dreams and i dunno ive just been being reminded of him a lot and its hard to deal with it so maybe i shud go there and pay respect to him. i mean i know its gonna be hard and stuff but i have to do it sumtime and i was thinking about going with my bestfriend alex because hes always there for me and i love him like my own brother but he leaves for college the end of this month. i dunno wut to do about my dad.. i so badly just wanna talk to him and say all these things but he cant hear me. and it hurts to know that soo much, and its really really hard to accept even though its been over a year now.. i guess its only normal though, i should worry if it was easy to not think about him and not be upset every now and then right? i hope so. i just wanna let him know that im sorry for the way shits been and i love him even though all hes ever hear me say was how much i hate him. so anyway, im having a bad night and i have this horrible annoying head cold. nd i have work tomorrow so i cant go to sound garden with my friends however i cannot complain.. i had an awesome time sunday at abyss! goodnight people. im sorry for making this possibly the longest entry ever! i probably wont update again though for like a year. haha, goodnight! =) _____xOx <33 //////// 6 ♥ //

weeeeeeeeeeee [23 Jul 2005|12:23am] [ mood | awake ] [ music | vanity score ] i leave for North Carolina in 3 hours. i shoulddd be sleeping but im too busy smiling. my night= simple yet amazing ♥!!! im gonna miss my chickiesss and himmm fo sho'. HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIIIIII<3333!!!!!!!!!!!!! when i get back, we'll celebrate. promise. white party. lol ;) byeeee peopleeeeeeee! ps; i LOVE jessica matzke with no "y". i LOVE malloryyyyyyyy! -!!-keep me updated-!!- i LOVE dani and her happy little world lol. pss;; actually, to shorten things up... i LOVE almost everyone! and chai tea and the asian moshi hippo <3333 pss; IM IN A GOOD MOOD, can you tell??? hmmmmmmmmmmm. im obsessed with two cd's right now. total opposites: 1.) race the sun 2.) benny bennassi go figure! lol <3///. see you august 1. 1 ♥ //

[20 Jul 2005|12:14am] [ mood | happy ] [ music | race the sun ] i love watching i heart huckabees. i love drinking vanilla chai. i love laughing about pointless crap for 20 minutes. i love moshi hippo. i love race the sun. i love cuddling [with him<3]. i love full house. i love pixie sticks. i love KERMIT, duh. i love stars. i love pointless entries [like this]. BUT, i hate packing. im leaving friday night/ saturday morning so byeee friends! ps; i love being happy, which is what i have been very much of these past few days.. yayy =) _ihearthuckabees_ ^ soo interesting. 2 ♥ //

xxxxxxxxxcrushcrushcrushcrushcrushcrushhhhhhhhhxxxxxxxxx [15 Jul 2005|01:33pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | the audition ] starbucksssssssss+pixiesticksssssssssss<3 ___hearts:::::::::::::::::::::: work tonight. seeing jess! then party(s)? // jackie. 2 ♥ //

[14 Jul 2005|12:27am] [ mood | happy ] [ music | the junior varsity ] eff that shit =) anywho, tonight: pisco's bday so a bunch of people went to janel's house. we hung out and drank there. rick<3. me and jess played hide and seek from nay lol; drank some starbucks, sara came late, and now im home. end of night. tomorrow= long day i think. gnight___ ♥ //

Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost? [06 Jul 2005|12:24am] [ mood | lonely ] [ music | rise against- swing life away ] so, im feeling all crappy and blah tonight. & theres nothing to do or take my mind off of whats making me so yuck so let's try this. yesterdayyyy: i came home from work and me kerri and alex spontaneously decided to go to seaside for fireworks, midway, and fudge. and of course he won me kermit<3! yayyy. i was happy. i didnt win the big vacation kermit thingie, but theres always next time lol. the boardwalk was pretty packed, but before we left we went to the beach and it was all windy and calm.. i loved it. for the exception of almost dying 456353 times on the way home, it was awesome. according to alex, almost doesnt count! i got to hang with jayy too though. so, yayyy!! not for long but it was better than nuthin. then today, i had work. as usual. www.purevolume.com/hometownanthem :) xO__ jackie///////// I'll show you mine if you show me yours first Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words 2 ♥ //

bhjxgfchgc [29 Jun 2005|12:32pm] [ mood | awake ] [ music | ghost house 1922 /////// ] im bored xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx. who wants to see tegan and sara at the stone pony on july 13th? (asbury park). <333333illloveyouuuuu,a lot<33333333333333333333333 1 ♥ //

//////////////// [22 Jun 2005|09:09am] [ mood | happy ] [ music | _____ race the sun. ] new tattoo. 3 ♥ //

[18 Jun 2005|01:35am] [ mood | ehhhhhhh ] [ music | circa survive ] uhmmmmmm, i hate: 1) being sick. 2) being busy with work, finals, and unnecesary drama. 3) being terribly confused. <3ineedhugs. tomorrow: i shall go to work and then sleep at kerri's! we have a fun checklist and i cannot wait. & you wish you were that cool.. ps;;; I reallyreallyreally do not </> like you!!!! 3 ♥ //

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